1- Scooping Poop Out of My Bosses Butt (ft. Bly Harper and Mo)

[00:00:00] Speaker A: Avi Mac show podcast. We're here streaming live on our platforms. I'm here with Bly and Mo. What's up, guys? Introduce yourself. Tell us a little bit about, you know, anything about you and your social media handles so they can follow you, you know. [00:00:13] Speaker B: Well, my name is Bly Harper. My social media is Bly Harper. That's it. I am 23. I am from Gainesville, Georgia. [00:00:24] Speaker A: Okay. [00:00:25] Speaker B: I was raised by my grandparents. I am a model and a. I'm technically a pca. I take care of a quadriplegic. [00:00:35] Speaker A: Okay. [00:00:36] Speaker B: My favorite colors are black obviously, because I'm alternative. [00:00:40] Speaker A: Nice. [00:00:41] Speaker B: And yeah, I guess that's all that think of right now. [00:00:48] Speaker A: That's good. Okay. [00:00:49] Speaker B: Just the basics. [00:00:50] Speaker A: What about you, Bo? [00:00:51] Speaker C: Hi, I'm mo. I'm also 23 years old. I also live in Gainesville. I do work as a CNA and an MA and I work for a healthcare agency that sends me out to different medical facilities that are short staffed. So I kind of help them out with that. That's pretty much what I do with most of my life, is work for my agency and just that's where my heart is at, is taking care of people. [00:01:14] Speaker A: So dope. That's dope. So you're telling us more about your job and taking care of a quadriplegic. Tell us a little bit more about that. [00:01:23] Speaker B: Okay. So the crazy thing about my job that most people don't know about taking care of a quadriplegic is they obviously. So quadriplegic, for those that you don't know, is somebody that has been paralyzed from the waist or from the neck down. Not waist down, the neck down. So most of the time they don't have any movement of their arms, legs, waist, anything like that. They can pretty much just move their neck and most of the time they don't have feeling. But fortunately for the guy that I take care of. We'll call him Josh. We'll call him Josh on here. [00:02:01] Speaker A: Okay. [00:02:01] Speaker B: So yeah, so basically he offered. I saw an add on Indeed. And applied for it maybe five years ago. [00:02:09] Speaker A: Okay, so you've been working for him five years. [00:02:13] Speaker B: I actually had a job opportunity to run a business in Atlanta and I was currently seeing the, the guy that I said that we would eventually talk about. So I took advantage and moved in with him and did that for almost two years. But no. So I worked with him for three years and now I'm back with him now, but okay, cool. But the interesting thing about my job is he can't use the bathroom on his own. [00:02:42] Speaker A: Right. [00:02:42] Speaker B: Because he can't move his body or anything. So I literally have to dig shit out of this man's ass. [00:02:47] Speaker A: Wow. That's. [00:02:48] Speaker B: That's what I did last night. [00:02:49] Speaker A: You have to dig it out of its ass. [00:02:51] Speaker B: Yes. Because you can't go to the bathroom. Vibe. She's over here dilapidating. At least you don't have to dig shit out of people's ass. [00:02:57] Speaker C: You literally do. I do all the time. [00:02:59] Speaker A: You know, bowel programs don't dig shit. Really? [00:03:02] Speaker B: You know how to do bowel program? Oh, shit. Okay. We have. What the fuck? We're best soulmates. [00:03:08] Speaker A: Wait, how do you do bowel programs? [00:03:10] Speaker B: Okay, so basically what I do is I put him on his glove. [00:03:13] Speaker A: Glove, Right. [00:03:14] Speaker B: Obviously, I use gloves. Okay. Okay. So I put him on his side. [00:03:19] Speaker A: Okay. [00:03:20] Speaker B: And I. So there's a pad. It almost looks like a puppy pad. [00:03:24] Speaker A: Okay. [00:03:24] Speaker B: I put it underneath him, and I have, like, hella baby wipes and some lube and an enema and gloves. So what I'll do is I'll put, like, a big old dollop of lube on the pad, and I'll put the pad underneath him, and I'll put a baby wipe, like, right under his little bum. [00:03:39] Speaker A: Okay. [00:03:39] Speaker B: And then I'll put one on the side of the pad, like, but still on the pad for me to wipe off my finger on. And I'll lube up my finger and I just go in there. And it's called digital stimulation. So you have to go into circles, and it helps his muscles get prepared to, like, have a bowel movement. [00:03:58] Speaker A: Oh, wow. [00:03:58] Speaker B: So I'll have to take out everything that's in the way. And so once I feel it's cleared. [00:04:04] Speaker A: What do you mean, take out everything that's in the way? So basically, like, I don't know anything about this. [00:04:08] Speaker B: Okay. So basically, he has what we call him, and I call it pellets. [00:04:12] Speaker A: Pellets. [00:04:13] Speaker B: Pellets. You know how a dog shits little bitty turds like this? It actually looks like that. Shut up. [00:04:19] Speaker A: Wow. Pellets. [00:04:20] Speaker B: Okay, So I literally had to dig out all these little pellets because they're like. They're like. Like in there waiting for me. They're like, waiting for you. [00:04:25] Speaker A: Okay. [00:04:26] Speaker B: Okay. So I take them out. [00:04:27] Speaker A: Bly, we're here for you. [00:04:28] Speaker B: Yes. They're like, come and get us. We're waiting. We're waiting. Come and get us. [00:04:32] Speaker A: We want to take a trip. Obviously, it smells. [00:04:35] Speaker B: I burn an incense. You. The smell's pretty bad. But you get used to, you know, cuz my, like my face. I'm not gonna lie, I'm like. It's like I'm so tall that I have to actually bend over. [00:04:45] Speaker A: Because you're like five eight, right? [00:04:47] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:04:47] Speaker A: Okay, cool. [00:04:48] Speaker B: So based on my senses, you know. Yeah, you got it right. So I have to like. I put my hair up obviously because I have long hair. But bend over and you know, my face is pretty close to his butt. So you can't get past the smell. But you get used to it. Doing it for so long. [00:05:04] Speaker A: At what point in time? Like week three. You get used to it or like I got three. [00:05:10] Speaker B: No, I got used to it pretty quickly. [00:05:12] Speaker A: Like within a few days. You're like whatever, poopy, poopy. [00:05:15] Speaker B: I waited six months to show me how to do it and I almost quit my job. Not gonna lie. [00:05:19] Speaker A: When they showed you. Why did they wait six months? [00:05:21] Speaker B: Because they didn't want to scare me off. Because like. [00:05:24] Speaker A: So they wanted you to fall? Like they wanted me to. Wanted to really like the job and the guy and so anyways, back to the. That's smart. That's why. How many people would like leave after day one? [00:05:35] Speaker B: Like I would have. [00:05:37] Speaker C: Yeah. Not for me. [00:05:39] Speaker B: Literally when I cast him for the first time, my face turned bright red. [00:05:42] Speaker A: Because I was like, what's cast? [00:05:45] Speaker C: Catheter. [00:05:46] Speaker B: Catheter. Catheterized. [00:05:47] Speaker A: I have to. [00:05:48] Speaker B: He could not pee on his own, so I had to put a catheter up his. [00:05:51] Speaker A: Did you do that day one. [00:05:52] Speaker B: Twice a day one. [00:05:55] Speaker A: And he feels everything? [00:05:56] Speaker B: Yes. He can even get a boner, but he can't have an orgasm. [00:06:01] Speaker A: This is crazy. Like, is the catheter like the most painful thing ever? [00:06:05] Speaker B: It's a 16 millimeter. So he got used to it. But it is about the size of a lead pencil. Like that you would use like a number two pencil going inside of your penis. [00:06:14] Speaker A: Like how soon? [00:06:15] Speaker B: All the way up into your bladder. [00:06:18] Speaker A: I would never get. I feel like whoa. Like no. I don't know how. How would I get used to it? How would. How is that eventually? [00:06:27] Speaker B: Okay, so it's okay. The closest, closest thing I can think to is like. You know when you're with a partner for a long time and you're vagina gets used to. [00:06:39] Speaker A: You know what? I don't really. I don't really get that. I don't. I've never had that experience. [00:06:44] Speaker B: I've been in two long, long relationships. So like that's kind of where it has came from. But it almost it's just, like, it adjusts to it. It adjusts to it. Like, it gets used to opening. It goes. It's. It's. Yeah, it shrinks back down. [00:06:58] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:06:59] Speaker B: But it'll stretch open without being painful because he's gotten used to. [00:07:04] Speaker A: So it's not painful anymore. [00:07:05] Speaker B: Yeah, no, but now he has an external cast, so it goes right into his belly. So I literally just have to change a bag, but I still have to dig the. [00:07:13] Speaker A: Out of his ass. Why don't you. Why don't they. Why can't they put the bag on the. The poopy bag? [00:07:18] Speaker B: Now that's a colostomy. And only people with, like, actual, like, medical health conditions with their colon have to have that. [00:07:26] Speaker A: Oh, yeah. [00:07:27] Speaker B: So he doesn't have to have that. You just have to. He just has to have that digital. [00:07:30] Speaker A: Stimulation in order to give him more of digital stimulation. And then it comes out. It. [00:07:35] Speaker B: See, that's why we're good at being. [00:07:37] Speaker A: Lesbians, because you're good with the finger in the butthole. [00:07:40] Speaker B: We're good at getting in there and digging it out. So we go with the fingers. [00:07:43] Speaker A: Look at y'all. Okay, so. Okay, so onto lesbians. [00:07:47] Speaker B: Like, well, I'm pansexual. [00:07:49] Speaker A: Pansexual. You're 100% lesbian. Like, you've been with one guy and you're like, never again. [00:07:56] Speaker C: Yeah, Well, I mean, for a long time, I tried to like the guy she was with. [00:07:59] Speaker B: I understand why. [00:08:00] Speaker C: I swear to God. [00:08:02] Speaker A: Why? What did this one guy do? [00:08:05] Speaker C: It wasn't. We had dated, like, in high school. It was. I tried to convince myself I was straight for a long time. I was like. I would just, like, get with girls. I'm never going to date one. Whatever. I didn't have sex with a guy until I was 19, and it was just like, no. [00:08:18] Speaker A: Nothing. [00:08:19] Speaker C: Yeah. And I still tried to kind of be straight. And then I got with my first girl, like, a couple months after that. [00:08:23] Speaker B: And I was like, this is where it's at. [00:08:25] Speaker A: How. How many guys have you had sex with? Like, three. [00:08:28] Speaker C: No, one. [00:08:29] Speaker A: Wow. [00:08:29] Speaker C: One time with that one guy. [00:08:30] Speaker A: How does this one guy feel? [00:08:33] Speaker C: Tries to hit me up. [00:08:35] Speaker A: Wow, that's legit. That's. What about you? How many guys? How many girls? Like, what's the ratio? Like. [00:08:45] Speaker B: I've definitely been with more men than women. I have been with my fair share of women, but it seems to me like a lot of women aren't about it. And personally, to me, a lot of women aren't about. They front about it. Ruby Rose came out as being gay, and everybody thought it was hot. That's when all the girls like, oh, I like girls. But back when I was. I came out to my family when I was 10 years old. [00:09:09] Speaker A: Was it hard? [00:09:10] Speaker B: No. I just told my grandma, I said, I like girls. And she looked at me like, what the fuck? But, okay, I accept it. And we went along with our lives, and I brought home my first girl, and she's like, I can tell that girl wants to be gay with you. And I'm like, well, no shit. She looks like almost like a fucking dyke. But I like femmes now. [00:09:26] Speaker A: But you like femmes now? [00:09:27] Speaker B: I'm very into femmes and stems my. Same as me. [00:09:31] Speaker A: So I just. [00:09:32] Speaker B: I like being like. I understand everybody has their own type, but for me, I believe, like, I want to be with a woman for the feminine qualities. I want the long hair. I want. [00:09:41] Speaker A: So you're in the femmes, too? [00:09:42] Speaker C: Yeah, it's more so like, a little bit masculine lesbians. But I still like the long hair. They might still do, like, a little bit of makeup, but they kind of dress more masculine. I still. I don't like short hair because I like women for women. [00:09:53] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:09:54] Speaker C: The feminine features. Yeah. [00:09:56] Speaker A: Okay. What were the features again? What you said. You said long hair. [00:09:58] Speaker B: Long hair. [00:09:59] Speaker A: Okay. [00:10:01] Speaker B: Like, still wardrobe. Like, I don't mind if a girl wants to wear jeans and a T shirt, because I wear ripped jeans, vans, and a T shirt or a crop top like this and a beanie. [00:10:09] Speaker A: Right. [00:10:10] Speaker B: Obviously, kind of the stemblet. [00:10:11] Speaker A: Right. [00:10:12] Speaker B: And also dress like this femme. So I like the same, like, you know, kind of the same look. I just don't prefer the women that I don't. I don't know if. Is dyke an offensive term? [00:10:24] Speaker A: I mean. I mean, that's a young question. [00:10:27] Speaker B: She's like, yes, like, masculine, masculine. But there are women that. I mean, like, I have seen on, like, these dating apps, like, her women proudly saying that they're dyke. So that's why I'm not sure if it's offensive to women, because I have seen women proudly say that they're dyke. But the more, like, more masculine women than she's talking about. I'm talking about the women that actually, you know, prefer to look boyish more. More masculine. Like, actually like men, you know, actually boys, you know? [00:10:56] Speaker A: Right. [00:10:57] Speaker B: The really short hair, they actually like, you know, kind of look like boys. You. That's okay. Everybody's got their own. [00:11:02] Speaker A: But you like women for women. You want that female energy. You want to look the female so. [00:11:07] Speaker D: Somebody has a question. [00:11:08] Speaker A: What's the question? [00:11:09] Speaker D: He said, what about bob haircuts? [00:11:11] Speaker A: Bob haircuts? [00:11:12] Speaker B: I think those are cute. No, I'm talking about. I'm talking about, like, there are some women out there that can, like, shave the side of their head and almost have that, like. [00:11:21] Speaker A: I like the shave head. That's kind of cute. [00:11:22] Speaker B: The sides is cute. Bobbed haircuts are cute. But I'm talking about the women that literally have like. Like that, like an actual boy haircut. Like, extreme, almost like buzz cut type of thing. It's just not. I just personally, like, at least. [00:11:37] Speaker A: At least make it 10 minutes, you. [00:11:38] Speaker B: Know, now I, like, I want to be able to run my. Hate my fingers through your hair, right? You know, and play with your hair, do each other's hair, do each other's makeup, you know, share clothes. That's why it's like. For me, it's like being in love with your, like, best girlfriend. I mean, I just. For me, that's just what I like. [00:11:56] Speaker A: Is it, like, pretty equal? Like, it's 50. 50 girls? Guys that you've dated in the past or what. Or who do. Who are you more attracted to, girls or guys? Can you say? Or. It doesn't even. It's hard to tell. [00:12:05] Speaker B: I'm. I don't say that I'm attracted to girls or guys. I honestly don't give a. What you have. If I'm attracted to you and you treat me right, and we have a mutual respect and, you know, we have a good bond, then I don't give a. If you used to have, you know, if you're trans, if you have a giant, if you used to have a dick, I don't care. That doesn't matter to me. For me, you know, I'm pansexual. I'm attracted to the person. You know, obviously, looks are important. You know, people out there say looks don't matter, but they do. What's the first thing that attracts you to somebody? I mean, think about Tinder. You swipe on Tinder, you're not gonna go. You're not gonna go and look through their bio and their Instagram and find out who they are and decide you like them. No, you say, oh, I think they're hot. I'm gonna swipe on them. So, you know, looks do kind of matter because that's kind of the first thing that attracts you to somebody. [00:12:50] Speaker C: Or if they have a hand tattoo. [00:12:52] Speaker A: Oh, it's all about the hands. [00:12:53] Speaker B: That's the hand tattoo. [00:12:55] Speaker C: Toxic women, if they look like They've probably sold drugs or been in a gang. And they have a hand tattoo. I'm like, yeah. [00:13:00] Speaker A: And what about face tattoo? Face tattoo? [00:13:03] Speaker C: You're all about it in general. [00:13:05] Speaker B: Oh, yeah. Any. I'm obviously alternative, so if she's alternative, it's. [00:13:09] Speaker A: It's okay. All right, so we know what you like as far as girls. Both of y'all. What do you. What do you like? Stems. Perfect. What do you like as far as guys? Like, straight guys? [00:13:20] Speaker B: Straight guys. I'm very into the. Do you know what? This is embarrassing. Do you know the catboy fad coming up? [00:13:31] Speaker A: I have no idea what the catboy fat. [00:13:33] Speaker B: I either like a feminine guy. [00:13:34] Speaker A: We're talking about, like, Prince. That's what we're talking about. What are we talking about? [00:13:38] Speaker B: No cat, like the guy said, dressing like a cat. [00:13:41] Speaker A: Like, he dressed like a cat. [00:13:42] Speaker B: Like maid outfits. [00:13:44] Speaker A: Oh, wow. [00:13:45] Speaker B: Have you not seen that thing on TikTok where they'd be dressing in maids? I just like. Since I like, really like girls, I like feminine men. [00:13:51] Speaker A: That's legit. Okay. [00:13:52] Speaker B: Or a man that's, like, extremely manly, though. Like, you gotta be. [00:13:59] Speaker A: What is extremely manly? Dude, we talking about, like, hairy chest, back hair, like, nobody. That's the first thing I'm thinking, like a manly man. [00:14:11] Speaker B: A nice deep voice. And like, they don't. Like. They know how to do, like, things around the house. [00:14:17] Speaker A: And they can fix. [00:14:18] Speaker B: They can change my fucking car oil and they can. You know, they like things like that. Like those actual. I'm not talking, you know, like. I'm not talking about, like. Like a man that has actually something to offer besides looks. [00:14:31] Speaker A: Okay, I got you. [00:14:32] Speaker B: It's what I mean. Obviously, I like a very buff man. [00:14:35] Speaker A: A buff man. [00:14:36] Speaker B: A buff man. But let's be honest, the really scrawny boys are packing. So if you also talk. [00:14:44] Speaker C: They normally are. [00:14:45] Speaker B: Every scrawny boy, skinny ass, white boy I have been with has had what I call an mc. A monster. [00:14:53] Speaker A: A monster cop. What? At what point in time does it become monster cock? Like, we're talking about past 10 inches. [00:14:58] Speaker B: What are we talking about? [00:14:59] Speaker A: Like nine inches, eight inches. What? @ what point I'm saying, become monster. [00:15:05] Speaker B: Okay, so I have, like seven and a half inch dildo, and that doesn't hurt. So I'm thinking past that is probably monster. [00:15:12] Speaker A: That's pretty monster cock. Yeah, that's legit. [00:15:13] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:15:14] Speaker A: Especially for a white boy that's super skinny. It's, like, proportionally ridiculous. [00:15:19] Speaker B: I used to date this guy. His name is. We didn't really Date. I'm not gonna say date. We didn't date. We just talked and, you know, messed around a couple times when I was in college. But his name is Cameron Keesling and he's actually a model for Vogue. And he's one of those really, really, really tall, scrawny white boys. And I'm gonna tell you that is the one cock in my life I have never been able to take. [00:15:40] Speaker A: You can take it. [00:15:41] Speaker B: That shit hurt so bad. I don't know. It was as thick as this cup right here. [00:15:45] Speaker A: Dang. [00:15:45] Speaker B: Jesus Christ, J. And that's when I realized the scrawny boys have it. [00:15:52] Speaker A: Okay, like so when he models, you clearly can see his cock. Like there's no way hiding that in underwear. There's no way. [00:16:01] Speaker B: I'm about to show you. [00:16:02] Speaker A: I gotta tell people. My is not. Not the girth of this. It is not. [00:16:06] Speaker B: I'm gonna tell you. I'm gonna tell you. I lost my virginity. I didn't bleed, but that is the only time I've ever. [00:16:12] Speaker A: That is blood. Ridiculous. That's crazy. That sounds a situation. She's trying to pull it out. All right, we got any questions? Miles in the chat. [00:16:23] Speaker B: Cool. [00:16:24] Speaker D: So we have a question from 8th Funk. He says Hobby Mac. Where did you get that shirt from? [00:16:29] Speaker A: I got this shirt from asos. You know, it's a great online company. I pretty much only shop online. Mostly ASOs, they got super affordable stuff and super ridiculous expensive stuff. So buy it asos. Buy it asos. Become a sponsor, please. Asos. See the discount code in the description? That's crazy. So, okay, we can, you know, we'll get to the picture later. You know what I'm saying? I don't know what he's trying to find, you know, searching hard for the picture. Let me see. Yeah, he's. He's a good looking guy. Yeah, yeah. He doesn't look. He looks like mixed or something. [00:17:11] Speaker B: He doesn't from here. [00:17:12] Speaker A: He doesn't look so white. [00:17:13] Speaker B: He's from. He's got the Banks County. [00:17:16] Speaker A: Banks County, I think Kill a Cam Winder. [00:17:19] Speaker B: I don't know, some shit like that. [00:17:20] Speaker A: That's. That's good. He's got the Vogue look. Looks good. [00:17:23] Speaker B: Yeah, he's cool. [00:17:24] Speaker A: But I don't know if people get. People can probably not see this, but whatever. Can people see that? Miles, they can't see that. There's no way. [00:17:33] Speaker B: Kill a cam 91. Barely check them out on Instagram. [00:17:36] Speaker A: Really? [00:17:36] Speaker D: Go to a picture, Go to a picture. [00:17:38] Speaker A: Go to a picture. Apparently this guy has A ginormous car. Okay. Shout out to killer cam 91 with the baby leg. All right, so we're talking about. [00:17:57] Speaker B: Wait, wait, wait. [00:17:58] Speaker D: We got one more question. So somebody says, Andrew Collins. [00:18:02] Speaker A: Okay. [00:18:02] Speaker D: He said, do they do black guys? Do you guys do. [00:18:05] Speaker A: Do you do black guys? [00:18:07] Speaker B: I went to Dalton State College and I lived on campus. [00:18:11] Speaker A: Okay. [00:18:12] Speaker B: And the. Well, let me just put it plainly. It was an all black school. And, yes. [00:18:19] Speaker C: I don't do guys in general. [00:18:23] Speaker A: How do black guys compared to white dudes? [00:18:26] Speaker B: I'm gonna be honest. Every single black guy that I was with in college had a smaller dick than any white boy I'd ever been with. So it's kind of disappointing. And. Yeah. And, you know. Yeah. I don't know. I'm gonna. I'm gonna be honest. Most of the black men that I've been with do not hold up to the stereotype being. Stereotype Hung like a horse. [00:18:47] Speaker A: Is that what you really like? You like the hung Wiggle horse? That's the biggest thing. [00:18:51] Speaker B: If you know how to use it. I don't care. I don't. I mean, obviously no girl wants someone that's like a really small dick, but if you got like 5, 6, 7 inches, but you know how to use it, you know how to hit those spots. Like, yeah, like, cool. Let's. Like, yeah, I'm down. You know, and if there's a mutual connection. [00:19:07] Speaker A: If there's a mutual connection, I'm not. [00:19:10] Speaker B: Just gonna put out for anybody, but, like, if there's a, you know, friendship and mutual connection. Right, whatever. But yes, size don't matter as long as you know how to use it. [00:19:21] Speaker A: As long as you don't. As long as you know use it. That's cool. As long as you hit. Oh, dang. Okay, let's go into the X thing. [00:19:28] Speaker B: Let's all about the crazy one. [00:19:29] Speaker A: Let's talk about the crazy one. Why not? Why not? [00:19:32] Speaker B: I'm gonna put this motherfucker on blast. [00:19:34] Speaker A: Okay. [00:19:35] Speaker B: His name is Michael Nelson. Underscore Mixter. If you want to go talk to him on Instagram. [00:19:40] Speaker A: Mixter. [00:19:40] Speaker B: The mixture. [00:19:41] Speaker A: The mixture that says that's his. At the mixture. [00:19:45] Speaker B: The mix. [00:19:45] Speaker A: At the mixture. Okay. [00:19:47] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:19:47] Speaker A: I don't know. [00:19:48] Speaker B: Okay, so I got a restraining order on this guy. I am the third girl to get a restraining order on him. Yeah. So the girl before me, I didn't know until I had already moved in with him. He got. He's on felony bond. He still is. He hasn't gone to court for it yet for kidnapping and beating up his ex girlfriend. [00:20:08] Speaker A: That's. That's no bueno. [00:20:10] Speaker B: No. So I ended up moving in with him, and he. His mom told me, it's like, fucking run. Like, please run. Like, when you try. If you try to leave him, he's gonna stalk you, he's gonna harass you, he's gonna blackmail you, he's gonna try to hurt you. Like, just run, please. And I was like, I'm the kind of person that used to, like. I used to like to give people the benefit of the doubt. And I was like, no. He seemed really good to me so far. I'm not even. [00:20:33] Speaker A: You're like his mom saying it, but whatever. [00:20:36] Speaker B: Yeah, I'm like, fuck his mom. She's probably crazy too. She was. She's also a sweetheart. But, like, I understand, like, kind of the way he is. The way he is. Okay, so their relationship has just been fucked up, you know? But so, yeah, we. Him and I were together for two years. He basically cheated on me the whole time. [00:20:58] Speaker A: Okay. [00:20:58] Speaker B: I had no idea. But he literally just treated me like a doormat. The only time he gave me attention was for sexual. And people will be like, well, why didn't you leave? He wouldn't let me leave. He had things that he would use against me. [00:21:12] Speaker A: Like, why? [00:21:13] Speaker B: Like blackmail type of things. Things that he could get me in trouble for, you know, because, you know, when you're with somebody for that long, you know, before I realize, you know, before I saw his dark side, you know, I confided in him about a lot of things, you know? You know, I thought I could trust him. I've learned now that you can't trust a fucking soul, so. [00:21:32] Speaker A: Oh, wow. [00:21:33] Speaker B: But he would always use those things against me. He would threaten me. There was this one girl that hated me because all of her sugar daddies thought I was hot. So she called my psychiatrist and told her I was selling pills. And even though they had no proof and she couldn't present proof, they cut me off. So. And I had told him about that, so he would be like, well, I'm gonna call your psychiatrist until the night you're selling pills, because, like, they'll. They'll cut you off without the proof. Like, they. You know, it doesn't matter, you know? And I, like, obviously I'm not selling my pills because I always have at least half the script left over every month, you know, But. So I didn't want that to be taken away from me again because it took me almost a year to find another psychiatrist. And, you know, just other Things, you know, weed and stuff like that, you know, but with my job, you know, as being, you know, a pca, you know, if those things come up, I can get in a lot of trouble and lose my job. [00:22:29] Speaker A: Oh, wow. [00:22:30] Speaker B: So he would always use those against me or physical violence. One time, he got upset with me because my ex had texted me, and she wasn't even really an ex. Her. And I just talked for a couple of months, and I cut her off for him, but she had texted me, like, I just cut her off out of the blue for him, which was really shitty on my part. [00:22:51] Speaker A: It seems like this seemed like the. A lot of drama. A ridiculous amount. [00:22:56] Speaker B: It was. It was. But it got to the point, basically, he. He got upset that she had texted me and had been like. Like, hey, like, I'd at least like to know you. Basically, closure was nothing. Like, I still love you. I still want to be with you. She's just like, I want to know what's happened. Like, I deserve closure. I was like, okay, I gave her her closure. And he saw that and got upset and threw me down the stairs. And you know those Route 44 Sonic drinks that you get? You know, the ones are like this. [00:23:25] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:23:25] Speaker B: He was full of a coke slushy, and he took it and threw it at me, and it hit me in the face, and it, like, exploded. [00:23:32] Speaker A: Wow. [00:23:33] Speaker B: And like, they're like, his mom still, like. Yeah. Even after two years later, his mom's still on his ass about paying to have the stains cleaned up from the wall on the floor from when he threw it at me. [00:23:43] Speaker A: Oh, because you were 11. Were you living. [00:23:44] Speaker B: I was living with him at the time, and. [00:23:46] Speaker A: And his mom or. [00:23:47] Speaker B: Yeah, he lives his mom, so that's legit. [00:23:50] Speaker A: Well, there it is. [00:23:51] Speaker B: I don't know why I'm dealing with a boy and his fucking mom, but whatever. [00:23:55] Speaker A: Is he staying at his mom's house or his mom staying at his house? [00:23:58] Speaker B: He was saying his mom. It was. It was the toxic vibes and the tattoos for me and. [00:24:01] Speaker A: Oh, you like the toxic vibes? The same as you. Yeah. [00:24:04] Speaker B: Why does toxic vibes now? If you're toxic, please stay away. If you're not toxic hit my line. [00:24:10] Speaker A: So why. Why do. Why do y'all. Why are y'all attracted to that? The toxic vibes? What. What brings it? [00:24:15] Speaker B: Is it like, I got mommy and daddy issues? Mom killed herself when I was younger, and my dad wasn't a big part of my life until recently, and same for her. [00:24:24] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:24:24] Speaker C: I mean, yeah, pretty much the same. Thing, I don't go after someone like, oh, I think you're gonna treat me like. But the type that I go for that has the hand tattoo and they like. I mean, I've dated people that could have potentially sold drugs or been in gangs, and I'm just like, I love it. They're normally, like, really protective, and I like that because I didn't have that because of my mommy and daddy issues. And the hand tattoo, I'm just like, I saw one girl on her. I only saw the hand tattoo. I was like, swipe. Right now I'm obsessed with her, and she's been really toxic to me. [00:24:56] Speaker A: Well, it makes sense. [00:24:57] Speaker B: Oh, I know who you're talking about now. [00:24:59] Speaker A: We know who you're talking about. So. Okay, so tell us more. You were telling us about your dad and mom's situation earlier. That story is pretty crazy to be. If you don't mind. [00:25:10] Speaker B: Okay, so I know it's a lot. [00:25:13] Speaker A: You don't have to. If you. It's all. [00:25:16] Speaker B: I'm just. I'm worried about. I want to. I'm trying to figure out how I can talk about him vaguely because my dad runs a global company, so he is very, very, very, very well known in the world and in our surrounding countries because he travels to Germany. [00:25:33] Speaker A: His name is Bill Gates. Bill Gates. His name is Bill Gates. [00:25:38] Speaker B: Bill Gates. I feel like any crazy person could do a search on me and find out who he is. So I just. I want to be careful about the things I say on here. [00:25:49] Speaker A: Yeah. Yeah, for sure. [00:25:51] Speaker B: But say whatever you. [00:25:52] Speaker A: Whatever you can and whatever you want. [00:25:54] Speaker B: Okay. So basically my story with my father is he didn't know I was alive until 4. The whole reason that he found out I was alive was because, you know, my mother, she ended up leaving me in a dumpster to go buy some methods. And she got so fucked up that she forgot about what she did with me. So she ended up calling the cops a couple days later, and they found me in the dumpster. She went to prison. She got out of prison, and she wanted child support money so she could, you know, continue doing drugs. So she hit up my dad and was like, yo, this is your kid? And I was like, four at the time. And he was like, nah, paternity test. Paternity test. And came back that I was his kid. [00:26:36] Speaker A: Oh, wow. [00:26:36] Speaker B: She's like, well, I need child support money. So he starts seeing her child support money. But it was just to fuel her dream drug addiction. And so. So, yeah, so basically my grandparents found out, which Is my dad's parents. He was living with them at the time, and they were like, well, you know what? Obviously she's not fit to be a mother. I was living with my mother's parents at the time. So they were, like, fighting in court to get custody of me. So after about a year, they finally gained custody of me. My grand. Well, my dad did. I think it was my dad. But then a couple years later, so I moved to Georgia when I was five. And then a couple years later, my dad met some woman on this website, and they didn't know each other very long and went on a vacation to Florida, but promised they wouldn't get married. But when they came back, they were married and she was pregnant. So I moved in with them. And at this point, my grandparents had raised me, you know, for several years. [00:27:42] Speaker A: You know, dad's parents. [00:27:45] Speaker B: Yeah, I was 8. I was 8 or 9. No, I was 9 because I turned 10 when I was living with them. So I had ended up moving in with them when they got married. They got married within, like, three months of know each and knowing each other or something. And she hated me so much. I was nine years old. She hated me. I didn't know why she had a child. His name was Keon. His name is Keon. He's not dead. I don't know why I said that. His name is Keon. I love him to death. He's actually the. My favorite of the siblings right now. He's an angel. But. So basically, she didn't like me. I moved in with them, and she treated me like shit. I was grounded all the time. She didn't want anything to do with me, locked me in my room. She was the first person to ever teach me about sexual education. She made me draw, like, what vaginas and penises looked like and stuff. So. [00:28:44] Speaker A: She made you draw? [00:28:45] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:28:46] Speaker A: Really? How does that even work? [00:28:48] Speaker B: I don't know. Okay. [00:28:50] Speaker A: I don't have to draw. [00:28:51] Speaker B: I just remember her. I just remember her giving me a notebook and paper and me drawing it, and I just, like. It's very blurry because I was, like, nine years old. [00:28:59] Speaker A: Okay, fair enough. [00:29:00] Speaker B: So I can't really remember exactly what happened, but so, yeah, she absolutely hated me. [00:29:06] Speaker A: Wow. [00:29:07] Speaker B: And she told my dad. She said me it had been. It had been about a year since they had met each other and moved in together, and I lived with them. She said, you can either kick your daughter out. And I was 10 at the time. 10 years old? Yeah, you can kick your daughter out. Me and my son Will stay or you can decide to keep your relationship with your daughter and me and my son are leaving and I'm going to divorce you. So he was like later to me and kicked me out. So I went back to my grandparents. [00:29:40] Speaker A: How did you feel about that? [00:29:42] Speaker B: I felt I had a lot of aminosity towards him for a while especially because I would go and visit them and she hated me so much that she would take my siblings, even the fucking dogs and she would leave and go stay at her parents house while I was there for the weekend. So it made me feel like. Like shit. He did everything for them. He did everything for my brothers, bought them anything they need. My grandparents didn't ask my dad for a fucking dime, no child support, nothing. Because since my mother died I was getting 600amonth from Social Security. So you know, like they weren't that stressed about getting child support money. But yeah, so my dad, him and I haven't really been close until recently because they've been going through some things and I went and saw them in October and I saw my dad in a way that I'd never seen him before. And ever since then we've been a lot closer. So. Yeah, I don't know, it's just. I don't know how to say it without like. Because if they see this, I don't want my dad to be like why the fuck you put my life out there? You know, without saying like, actually like what's going on? All I can say is maybe I'll be going to Colorado soon. I don't know. [00:31:01] Speaker A: Okay. [00:31:01] Speaker B: Depends how things turn out with their situation. [00:31:04] Speaker A: Right, right. Yeah, if you can kind of. Yeah, for sure. Yeah. [00:31:08] Speaker B: From that. But he, yeah, he runs. Have you ever heard of ge? Yeah, my dad helped build that company. [00:31:16] Speaker A: Oh, cool. [00:31:17] Speaker B: And another company. [00:31:19] Speaker A: So your dad's like older? [00:31:21] Speaker B: He is. He just turned like 42. Oh, I'm 23. So he had. They had me when they were like 17 or 18. They were young, they were in high school. [00:31:30] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:31:31] Speaker B: So. But yeah, so my dad's like, he's pretty well known in the world and that kind of thing. He makes a lot of money of his job, but I never see any of it. That's why I got my only fans. So. [00:31:46] Speaker A: So you got the only fans, but. [00:31:47] Speaker B: I got the only fans. [00:31:48] Speaker A: How do, how do you, how do you like the onlyfans Adventure? Like that, everything. How's that going? [00:31:56] Speaker B: Well, when I first started, I wasn't used to the kind of attention, I should say that I received. [00:32:03] Speaker A: What kind of attention. [00:32:05] Speaker B: I got people hitting my Instagram and Snapchat up. I literally just put some. I do. I just exposed some guy on my Snapchat today because people just like. Guys think they can just send me random fucking dick pics. I'm like, no, you can send me a dick pic, but you're gonna send me $5 with it. I'll gladly look at your dick for $5. Okay. [00:32:24] Speaker A: That's what like it. [00:32:26] Speaker B: It. It ain't for me to look at your dick for $5. And I'll tell you what I think of it. [00:32:29] Speaker A: Do you give a. Why do guys like that? [00:32:32] Speaker B: They call it dick rates. [00:32:33] Speaker A: Why do guys like that? [00:32:35] Speaker B: I don't know. And honestly, like, I've. [00:32:37] Speaker A: I don't get it. [00:32:39] Speaker B: Somebody paid me $50 the other day to give you advice to suck on a banana. [00:32:46] Speaker A: Oh, suck on a banana. Yeah, fair enough. [00:32:49] Speaker B: And I bit the tip off at the end and he liked it even me to do that, so he sent me an extra 25. [00:32:55] Speaker A: Oh, wow. [00:32:56] Speaker B: You're welcome. [00:32:57] Speaker A: Genius. [00:32:58] Speaker B: Thank you. Mission with you rip the tip off the banana. [00:33:06] Speaker A: And I was like, spit it at the camera. How often do you make content? [00:33:11] Speaker B: I. So I do photo shoots once or twice a week, and I take anywhere between 1,000 and 2,000 photos. So I kind of stack up on content. Okay. [00:33:21] Speaker A: And then how many different outfits during that? Once or twice a week. [00:33:27] Speaker B: Well, I am a. I would call myself a nude exotic model. [00:33:32] Speaker A: Nude exotic model? [00:33:34] Speaker B: Yeah, the close. The only clothing you're gonna see on me in my photos is like, panties. [00:33:40] Speaker A: Panties. Should we do some nude exotic modeling today? [00:33:44] Speaker B: I mean, I'm down to do some nude exotic modeling. [00:33:47] Speaker A: Let's do it. Why not? [00:33:49] Speaker B: Have you not seen my Instagram? [00:33:50] Speaker A: No, I have, I have. [00:33:51] Speaker B: So have you seen my recent post? [00:33:54] Speaker A: How recent? [00:33:55] Speaker B: This is what I mean by I. [00:33:56] Speaker A: Saw some nude exotic stuff in there. I was like, oh, that's pretty good. Yeah. [00:34:00] Speaker B: No, this is what I mean by this is the exotic. [00:34:03] Speaker A: Oh, yeah, yeah, I did see this one. Yeah. Can we show this on that? Yeah, yeah, this is pretty good. Yeah. Go follow. Go follow this. Bly. Harper, this is. This is great for the kids. [00:34:16] Speaker B: I'm glad your podcast, it's not for kids. [00:34:19] Speaker A: It's live for the kids, for the children. [00:34:22] Speaker B: But yeah, a lot of my stuff is like lingerie. Lingerie or a nude exotic. Or I do like, occasionally film. I don't want to say like porn, but it is porn. [00:34:38] Speaker A: What's that? [00:34:38] Speaker B: I'll sell. I'll do custom. [00:34:41] Speaker A: Custom. [00:34:41] Speaker B: So my photographer like those photos that were just showed, somebody custom bought them from me. So that's, you know, I'll go and be like, well, somebody wanted me like to custom make them this video. Or like if they want me to make it all custom make it whenever, you know, they decide to purchase it. But, but I do stack up on the content when I go to photo shoots and like, you know, so that way like the days that because only fans is a full time job, people think it's easy to come on here. And it's not like it's. You gotta post every day. You have to talk to your followers. [00:35:13] Speaker A: You gotta text them how much, how many hours a day you think you put into talking to your followers or a week? [00:35:24] Speaker B: At least 30, 35 hours. [00:35:26] Speaker A: 35 hours a week? [00:35:27] Speaker B: Yes. [00:35:28] Speaker A: Talking to your. [00:35:29] Speaker B: Thank God I have a job where he doesn't care if I'm on my phone most of the time. Sometimes he's up my ass and I can't be. But most of the time I can be on my phone. So I'm constantly. [00:35:38] Speaker A: So sometimes he's up your ass, but then you're up his ass as well. [00:35:42] Speaker B: Oh, I'm in his ass and then. [00:35:45] Speaker A: He'S in your ass. [00:35:46] Speaker B: Yes, yes, yes, yes. [00:35:48] Speaker A: He's like, stop. You're like, stop getting my ass. The funny thing is, let me get in your ass. [00:35:53] Speaker B: I raw dog him and he'll be like, I'm not ready for the fisting. You raw dog him, cuz I'll forget to lube it up again. And I just like, I don't go in there slow. Even at the beginning. I like cover that in lube and I just go in like I'm trying to get in. [00:36:08] Speaker A: What does he say? He's like, no. Or is he like. [00:36:11] Speaker B: He doesn't say anything. He goes to sleep. [00:36:13] Speaker A: Oh, interesting. [00:36:15] Speaker B: He sleeps during it, you hear. [00:36:18] Speaker A: Oh, because he takes pills or something. How's that work? So he doesn't. [00:36:20] Speaker B: No, he. [00:36:22] Speaker A: It just doesn't. He doesn't. [00:36:23] Speaker B: I don't know if it feels good, if it's the release. [00:36:25] Speaker C: I mean he's, he. [00:36:29] Speaker B: He'S very interesting character. [00:36:31] Speaker A: Has he ever hit on you? [00:36:33] Speaker B: He has offered me so much. Okay. [00:36:36] Speaker A: How much money has he offered? [00:36:40] Speaker B: I would honestly consider that I get sexual. Sexual harassment from this job and sexual assault. Because you know how he can move the one hand, like I explained, he will literally slide it up between my fucking legs. [00:36:53] Speaker A: Oh, wow. That's. [00:36:54] Speaker B: He will ask. The other day he asked me, he said, each time you suck my dick I'll give you $50. I said, I'm not sucking nobody's dick for $50. And sure as fuck not sucking your dick like, you're my boss, so that's crazy. And he's offered me. He's offered me credit cards, money, cars, house. [00:37:15] Speaker A: What's the most. What's the most he's offered you? [00:37:18] Speaker B: He offered to buy me my own apartment and give me. Told me I could buy any car I wanted if I was his girlfriend. [00:37:26] Speaker A: Wow. Was any of these offers hard to deny, huh? [00:37:31] Speaker B: Oh, yeah. I've never given. I mean, like, I'm not gonna. I'm not gonna lie. I've sent him pictures in order to, like, receive extra money, but he's compensated me greatly for it. But it was like, the type of pictures you'll see on my Instagram, so it's not like it's almost lewds. It's not like. Like, spread type, you know, and he'll. He'll send me money for him. And she's. [00:37:52] Speaker A: When he was like. When he was like, apartment and car, were you like, maybe I should do this? Or you're like, no. [00:37:59] Speaker B: I mean, honestly, I've had sugar daddies that have given me a lot of money, and I have been intimate with them, but I was, like, physically attracted to them, and they were young sugar daddies. I'm sorry, but, like, I know this sounds really mean, but, like, he's a quadriplegic. I work for him. And, like, it's not that I'm against being with somebody that. Who's disabled, but it's like, I literally have to dig out of his ass, so why would I want to. You. That's like, am I not. Am I wrong or am I right? [00:38:28] Speaker A: I mean, it's just a lot, like, it's a lot. [00:38:32] Speaker B: The whole situation, it's a lot to. [00:38:34] Speaker A: Take in for me where I'm like. [00:38:36] Speaker B: Wow, I brush his teeth, I shower him. You know, I do everything. And it's just like, I'm already like your girlfriend. And he. He does things for me, like, sometimes, like, we know before I started only fans, and I needed, you know, some money to pay a bill. So low on money. He would loan me the money, but I would pay him back. I would always pay him back in the time that we agreed, if not sooner. And recently he's been like, well, I've loaned you money. I've done this for you. I've done that for you. So you should just oblige your body to me. Tell me that I should just Fuck him whenever he wants me to because he's done things for me as my employer. But I'm like, you offered those. I didn't come asking for a handout. You said that you, you know, you've told me that you, you know, you've noticed me talking on the friends to my phone about how I'm stressed about this and that because, you know, I'm allowed to use my phone. [00:39:24] Speaker A: Yeah, yeah, yeah. [00:39:25] Speaker B: Me and her talk all the time while I'm at work and I'll tell her about this kind of shit. And he'd be like, oh, I overheard. Like, you know, I'll be more than happy to, you know, lend you this much money and you can pay me back. You know, we can make an agreement to pay back and like, okay, cool. Like, since you offered. But like, if I knew it was going to get me in this position where he's like, you need to fuck me because I've done you favors, I would never take in the favors. And it seems like to me a lot of men are like that. [00:39:47] Speaker A: So that's a lot. So what's stopping you from like taking it? I don't know, the company situation. It seems like there's some levels in management, right? Like, what's stopping you from. [00:39:55] Speaker B: No, there's no level of management. He pays me. He was in an accident, so he's got money. [00:39:59] Speaker A: It's just directly, it's no, there's no. [00:40:01] Speaker B: Hr, there's a payroll service that he pays me through, but he is a person. There's nobody else that I report to or anything like that. He is the person. He pays me. Whatever he puts in the computer is my time. That's what I get paid for. And I, and I stopped working for him, you know, originally the first time, because I worked 50 something hours one week. And he's like, well, my budget, you know, he gets, they, they dump money in his account every year, you know, to pay for caregivers. Yeah, he's like, oh, my budget. Slow. And I'm like, well, you, you, you knew that your budget was low how many months ago. Like, you see your budget. So like, you should have told me that I couldn't. Like, you should have informed me of this. Like, because normally I'm, I work 10:00am to 10:00pm and I'm not 10:00am, 8:00am to 10:00pm so I'm, I'm there all. [00:40:50] Speaker A: 8:00Am To 10:00pm yes. And I get a lot of hours. [00:40:53] Speaker B: That's a couple hours. And I'll go hang out at her House. Because she's right down the road. [00:40:57] Speaker A: Right. So that's just a lot, right? [00:41:00] Speaker B: Yes. But, you know, right now I'm just kind of over it. I'm kind of. You know, he. Like the last week, he was begging, begging, begging, begging for sex. And I'm just like, I'm so over it. [00:41:10] Speaker A: So what is so. Isn't only fans bringing in enough that you're just like. I'm over it. [00:41:15] Speaker B: Okay. So the thing was only fans. Only fans was I was bringing in hell of money I was making. I made it to the top 4% in my four my first month. [00:41:22] Speaker A: Right. Like the probably like multiple five figures or something. [00:41:25] Speaker B: Yes. I was making good money on that. [00:41:27] Speaker A: A month. [00:41:28] Speaker B: Yeah. But then my ex, that I had to get the restraining order on. [00:41:32] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:41:33] Speaker B: I ended up leaving him. I had to flee to Colorado in order to get away from him because he was stalking me and like that he would. He would sleep outside of my house. [00:41:41] Speaker A: This is intense. [00:41:42] Speaker B: So I went to Colorado, stayed with my parents for a while. [00:41:45] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:41:46] Speaker B: No. And while I was out there, he made a Instagram of me. It was the same exact handle, but it had like an underscore with it. And he added all my friends and family, and he made a free Only fans account. [00:42:02] Speaker A: Oh, wow. [00:42:02] Speaker B: And all my friends and family followed it and found out and then found out about my real Only fans account. So I've had a lot of drama in my family. So I stopped doing only fans for a couple months because my uncle ended up purchasing my only fans. So I was too scared to post on it anymore. I was too scared. So I was off of it for a couple months. I just started on my Only fans again. Yes. So who has sexually assaulted me? [00:42:29] Speaker A: Wow. [00:42:30] Speaker B: So it's even weirder. [00:42:31] Speaker A: Yeah, that is weirder. [00:42:32] Speaker B: And his wife doesn't want me to come to family gatherings and stuff because he's seen me naked. But I'm like, that's not my fucking problem. Your husband should not have paid for. I mean, I mean, only fans is fucking obvious. There's. There is a disclaimer in my bio that you're gonna see me fucking naked. [00:42:48] Speaker A: Right. [00:42:49] Speaker B: He knew what he was getting into it. There's multiple steps of verifying your age when you set up an OnlyFans account. So it's not like he just, you know, Google paid like a fucking app. [00:42:58] Speaker A: And saw when people sign up, you get to see who signs up. [00:43:01] Speaker B: Yes. But he signed up anonymously so I could. Didn't know who it was, so I couldn't block them from the account. So I stopped, you know, working on it. But, you know, I've recently picked back up. So like, you know, I've gotten back up there a little bit. So like, I'm slowly like trying to get back and get more followers and stuff like that. Because at this point I'm like, you know what? It's not my problem. It's their issue for looking at me naked. They've already seen me naked because they already bought the only fans. So of course, why should I dim my light? You know, I'm gonna just keep doing my thing and it's like, you know, whatever. I just, I don't care anymore. Like, yeah, I just don't give a shit. You know, after, you know, all this with my ex, like, I just. I really don't give a fuck. Like, I'm gonna do me, I'm gonna do what makes me happy. Nobody's gonna agree with what you do in your life. You know, most people aren't going to be happy with you. Most people are gonna have some shit to say about what you're doing. So you might as well do what you want to do. [00:43:53] Speaker A: You. Whatever you want to do. [00:43:54] Speaker B: Yeah, you might as well just be happy because I mean, the only people that's. The people that support. Support you and love you and care for you no matter what you're doing are the only people that should matter in your life. And I know, I know it's hard when it's family and. But all of them, most of my family them, because yeah, I have better. [00:44:12] Speaker C: Friends that mean more to me than my own family. [00:44:14] Speaker B: Exactly. You make your family these days. [00:44:16] Speaker C: You make your family. [00:44:17] Speaker A: So it seems like, you know, you're pretty. Like you have a level head on you based on. I mean, especially what happened to you with everything and previous. Like, you know, you seem pretty like you. You know how to like. [00:44:33] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:44:33] Speaker A: Still move forward in your life, you know, when I would think experiences some people want to, you know. [00:44:38] Speaker B: Yeah. The way I see it is you. You. I mean, everything happens and you can't change the past. You can't change these things, you know, so you might as well make the best out of the situation. It sucks. Grieve. I grieved for a couple months, but you know, like, you gotta get back out there and live your best life. You can't let you know, especially when it's like a fucking boy or something bring you down and dim your light. And I've come to learn that I love who I am and I'm not Gonna let anybody take that away from me. [00:45:08] Speaker A: It seems like, yeah, you've been through so much. It seems like you have a powerful message because I'm sure you've been through stuff that a bunch of other people have, but they just not, of course, able to share it, you know, so I'm sure there's people that like, might even see this video that's like, holy crap. Like, she's been through the same thing that I have and she like, has persevered and she's doing well, you know. [00:45:29] Speaker B: I hope so, because, you know, you. I know it's hard for people to be like, you can't let your past define you. My past has defined me. But thankfully for me, I've been able to, you know, take advantage of those and build on them. [00:45:44] Speaker A: Like, how do you, how do you do that? How did you mentally get past it? Like, what? Like, I don't know if you've read books or. Like you've. [00:45:52] Speaker B: No, I've never done the mantra thing, the affirmations thing, any of that shit. Just, I think I've just. I just been through so much. At one point in my life, a couple years ago, I was engaged to somebody and I. All I thought, all I fantasized was about how I was going to kill myself. And I had a suicide attempt and wound up in the mental hospital. And after that it was just kind of like, I don't know, I. I can't let these things happen to me anymore because I could have died, you know, I should have died. [00:46:26] Speaker A: What? What? Yeah. No, that's crazy. [00:46:29] Speaker B: Yeah. I mean, so now at this point in my life, it's like I. I reached that all time low and. [00:46:38] Speaker A: Glad you didn't die. [00:46:40] Speaker B: Me too. Me too. Some days I. I'm not gonna lie. Some days I still have my days. I'm like, I wish I was fucking dead. But who doesn't? You know what I mean? But in the end, basically, I just think those are things that I cannot control and there's no point making myself miserable or dwelling on them. And I know it takes. It took me a lot of practice and took me a while to get past those things because it, you know, it was really hard for me, you know, to. I'm one of those people that I get very attached to things and people very easily. [00:47:10] Speaker A: Right? [00:47:11] Speaker B: But. [00:47:12] Speaker A: And I, I can tell it seems like you have a lot to give positive to the world, you know, Even though you've been through so much, I feel like that helps you connect and persevere with people. And, like, you know, I feel like, you know, just. You have positivity to give. I can just feel that. [00:47:30] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:47:31] Speaker A: You know. [00:47:31] Speaker B: Yeah. And I feel like my recent experience with my relationship taught me a lot, and romantic relationship. [00:47:38] Speaker A: The guy. [00:47:39] Speaker B: Yeah. Mickey, Michael. [00:47:40] Speaker A: Yes. [00:47:41] Speaker B: Being with him taught me really, really taught me who I am, what I want to be, who I want, what I'm looking for, that type of thing. And, you know, kind of taught me to not take because I took for him from so long. And honestly, it's just not worth it. He wasn't worth it. Nothing about him was worth it and it never will be. And I feel sorry for the next girl who's with him because she's going to wind up in this exact same situation. And I don't know why he's not in jail, because he's. Like I said, he's on felony bond for kidnapping and beating up his ex still. And I just had to get a restraining order on him. And he just broke the restraining order the other day by purchasing my only fans. But the cops didn't do anything about it. And that's my job. That's my job. It's on the restraining order. No. No social media. No. With my job. And I'm like, he's on my only fans. He's black mailed me with my own. [00:48:30] Speaker A: Social media and job. [00:48:32] Speaker B: Exactly. So I'm like, why hasn't anybody. I cussed them out the other day. Why hasn't anybody done anything about it? Like, you know what I mean? Like. [00:48:41] Speaker A: All right, that's crazy. [00:48:42] Speaker B: That's a lot crazy. So if any of y'all know who I'm talking about or just please stay away. [00:48:48] Speaker A: Stay away. [00:48:48] Speaker B: For the love of God, stay away. [00:48:51] Speaker A: Do we have any questions? Miles, do we have anything? [00:48:53] Speaker D: Yeah, there. So somebody says, what's the name of the ma'am with the black hair? [00:49:00] Speaker A: That's Mo. [00:49:01] Speaker C: Of the what? [00:49:02] Speaker A: The girl. The man with the black hair. Ma'am, this is a Southern gentleman here. She's a ma'am. [00:49:13] Speaker C: My name is Morgan, but I go by Mo. [00:49:15] Speaker B: Gotcha. [00:49:16] Speaker A: Mo. M O. [00:49:17] Speaker D: It's spelled M A M, too. Ma'am. [00:49:19] Speaker A: Ma'am, I wanna. [00:49:21] Speaker C: I think I heard it wrong. [00:49:22] Speaker A: Hello, ma'am. Better be a posture on there as well. Y'all better write it correctly. You heard? [00:49:32] Speaker D: And somebody says, what's your name? I don't know who they're talking to, but I guess. [00:49:37] Speaker B: Well, my name is Bly. This is Morgan, and it's Javi. [00:49:43] Speaker A: Done Mo. Do you have any stories? You have anything you want to share with us? [00:49:49] Speaker C: I mean, I have. I feel like I have just as many stories as. I think that's why we're best friends. Because we've been through so much fucked up shit and that's kind of. And we've always been there for each other and we've just been each other's rock for like eight years. We've been best friends eight years. [00:50:05] Speaker A: Where is it? What Matching tattoos we got. Oh, that's a constellation. Is that Orion's belt? Kind of like a little bit. Ryan's belt has the three as the three. Okay. [00:50:17] Speaker B: This is the Virgo constellation. [00:50:18] Speaker A: Oh, the Virgo. Oh, because you're both Virgos exact same birthdays. Okay. [00:50:22] Speaker C: She's like 30 minutes older than me. [00:50:24] Speaker A: 30 minutes. That's legit. Well, I got good news and bad news. The bad news is we just wrapped this up. The first podcast. Well, that's good, I guess. But the good news, we got the food. The food's here. It's waiting for us right outside. We're gonna get some ASMR going. We're gonna get some tacos. Are we excited? [00:50:45] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:50:46] Speaker A: Okay. Hey guys, we're gonna take a little break. I'm gonna restroom it. We're gonna get some food and we're gonna knock out. Thanks. I'm Javi Mac. Javi Mac show on all social media platforms. [00:50:57] Speaker B: As you probably know, I'm Bly Harper on all social. Well, just go to my Instagram blyharper and check on my link tree. [00:51:07] Speaker A: Check her out. You know, go to the onlyfans subscribe. It's $15 a month, guys. [00:51:12] Speaker B: Hey, I might, you know, after this, I might even throw out a little. [00:51:16] Speaker A: Promotion, make preview for, you know, for the children. [00:51:23] Speaker B: No, not for the children. [00:51:25] Speaker A: Not for the children. No, no, for the. For the 35 year old children. Okay. [00:51:30] Speaker B: Yes, yes. [00:51:31] Speaker C: 18 plus. [00:51:32] Speaker B: 18 plus. [00:51:33] Speaker A: 18 plus. [00:51:34] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:51:35] Speaker C: My. All of my socials are poisonous tongue with three E's at the end of it. [00:51:39] Speaker A: It that's legit. Okay. And she's TikTok famous for all y'all that don't know. [00:51:44] Speaker B: Yes. Follow my baby on TikTok. Follow her on everything. [00:51:47] Speaker A: On everything. There we go. Hey, thanks for watching. Love you guys. [00:51:50] Speaker B: Bye. Adios.